Lacy's Writings

by Lacy Pittman

You say that you were young

like that's a valid excuse

I know I'm not like some

but I know when I'm being lied to

My mom was also young

she was there and you

just left without so much

as a goodbye too

You came back now

and that's great for you

but it doesn't fix things for me

I'm still torn up by you

You act like everything is supposed to be ok now

nothing will ever be the same

I don't know how

you'd even think that anything would be good between us

there's so much missing

I can't fill you in on this stuff

my life

my memories

my very existance

depended on the growth that happened

in my earlier existance

you missed it

it's too late

there's no video tape

for you to pop in and see what you missed out on

there's no audio tape

for you to push play

and hear

my laughs

my hurt

my tears

my love

my accomplishments

my triumphs

my tribulations

and you think that things are different now?

my actions are just a simulation

im not being honest when I say I don't care

when I say I don't care that you weren't there

I am being honest when I say I don't know where

I'm going with this relationship

I don't know who you are!

You act like I'm supposed to pretend that this is special

It's not

so what?

no one can change it

you made your bed

you chose your fate

you're the one who created this hate

try to fix it now

good luck to you

I'm still here

but where are you?

Right where you've been my whole life

gone

no where in sight

do you call?

nope not you

you sit there and pretend too

you act like this was all important to you

I'm here

doing what I always do

I am strong

I'll never falter

I'm like a brick wall

I'm my own shelter

I don't need you to be there

I know God will always care

I am me

without you

and that's something I'll always do.

Copyrighted 2010

Updated on: 08/31/2011 03:16:57 PM